I am messed up.

Okay, I had my driving test today.

And I failed. AGAIN. Because I panicked an made an illegal u-turn on Highway 65.

And when I cried in the car about it, MY FATHER BEAT THE CRAP OUT OF ME WHILE WE WERE IN THE CAR AND THREATENED TO DESTROY ALL MY GAMES AND MY LAPTOP BECAUSE I FAILED!

My head still hurts from the concussions he gave me, by the way.

The worst part, he's "shocked" that I think so poorly of myself (i.e. I'm a worthless sack of crap, I suck at driving, I'm retarded, etc.) when I'm only repeating what he calls me on a daily basis! Granted he seems like he realizes and tries to make amends, but it's pretty much too little, too late. I'll admit, I fucked up on this test big time, and he's not a bad guy, but he knows I get emotional so forcing me to stop under pain of...well, pain, is NOT what you should do!

And another thing, I'm seriously thinking I have a mental problem that prevents me from concentrating and when I tell him his, he laughs and tells me I'm just lazy and that ADHD and Asperger's Syndrome and autism isn't real. Kinda funny when your wife is a certified dyslexic, asshole. Not to mention we know someone who IS autistic and makes kickass cookies.

They all try to convince me that they really love me and want the best for me, and they honestly do, but the way that they go about it is so messed up and they think I just have no real problems and are just making this all up and that my best friend is my only friend and we both fuck each other in the asses while masturbating to anime and all of you people here on the internet are all faceless goons who have brainwashed me into becoming a basement dwelling hippie.

Kinda hypocritical of my sister, considering she is an internet troll left-wing flaming liberal who wants to kill us all.

And to top it all off, it's raining its ass off here in Memphis.

I want to set fire to so many things right now, mostly our neighbors houses for bitching at us for not raking up our leaves EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE NO EQUIPMENT TO DO IT OR MONEY TO HIRE PEOPLE, and leaving the garbage out FOR THE GARBAGE PEOPLE TO COLLECT WHICH IS REQUIRED BY LAW, and worst of all, we drove into our yards, yes, BUT SO THAT PEOPLE COULD COME TO OUR HOUSE AND FIX OUR SHIT!

Yeah, today's a kind of a shitty day.

But I got my last LootCrate for a while. So yay, I now have an Optimus Prime shirt.

That FedEx interview had better yield something or I will lose all hope and will to live.